Monday, May 14, 2012

LOVE

Greeting in Jesus name,
I think it has been a little over a month since our last post, so I hope I can remember the highlights since then. It has been a pretty smooth time all things considered. I have had 2 rounds of chemo and go for my third on Wed. May 16 th. I have had no nausea and only one sore spot on my tongue which has cleared up since my last treatment.
I know you know the promise in Romans 8:28 that states Our Father causes all things to work together for good to those who love Him and are called according to His purpose.  Cancer is a thing, therefore it must work for good in the life of any born again believer. Of course that does not mean cancer is a good thing.
I am certain the main reason the Father has allowed this dis-ease in my life is because I have not been willing to be still and know He is God. Since my great turn around in Mexico I have once again gotten busy doing stuff rather than taking this time of sabbatical to be still and know Him and learn the areas in my life which I have not surrendered to His Lordship.
i.e. Besetting sins which have caused me to be less than loving to my wife,children and family members closest to me. It is fairly easy to be the holy man for a hour long concert or a week long seminar but to love your wife as Christ, or not provoke your children to anger, when they know what you can really be like on a daily basis, is another story.
I believe that is the purpose of God we are called to , Thou shalt love the Lord your God with all your heart mind soul and  strength, and love your neighbor as yourself, and only God knows how far I have fallen short of that mark.
I thank all of you for you faithful prayers for the healing of my physical body. Please be in prayer for Mary, our Children and family as I seek to make amends for the ways I have failed to love them in a Christ like manner and as they heal from the wounds I have caused them.
I am so thankful for the way our Father has used cancer in my life to show me how much He has loved me and how little I have loved Him and His precious children He has placed closest to me. Little children love one another.

                            Humbled under His mighty hand,
                                                john